There’s a question swirling inside me: Does 50 Shades of Grey really matter in light of the 21 beheaded Christians? Both stories are circulating in the Christian community, and are both the subjects of Christian bloggers, Christian commentators, and Christian readers. What happened on the beach in Libya to these Christians and what happens in Christian Grey’s “play room” are front and center right now.

So in light of these 21 young men losing their lives, does the 50 Shades question really matter? Does it really matter if Christians watch it, does it matter if movie theaters run by Christians show it, and does it matter if Christian leaders speak up about it? This is the question I’m wrestling with.

A reader asked me how much money I make by selling books, so I answered her–I make nothing. Actually, I’m losing money by writing books.

“How is that so?” she asked.

Because I self-published my books.

“Why do you do it then?”

Because there’s more to life than making money. I wholeheartedly believe in the messages of Made To Pray and One-Minute Devotions On Prayer. I believe God made each of us to uniquely connect by finding our best prayer types. And I believe God’s presence refreshes us and it needn’t take hours, in fact can take but a minute.

I believe in these messages so strongly that I’d rather get them out to you than sit around waiting for an official publishing committee and its process. Would I turn that down should it come up? No, but I’m not about to sit on my hands, sit on my message.

So yes, I write books and I’m losing money. No big deal because I’m banking on the fact that God will bear fruit in your life by these books and that’s far bigger a reward than any book payout.

It’s your last day to guarantee shipping of “One-Minute Devotions On Prayer” or “Made To Pray” before Christmas at the online store.